G48: The Divine Interrupt…Post 7

I talked with David often and I journaled everything so I wouldn’t forget. I was in a dreamlike state, knowing that David would show me he was still with me. A few weeks after he passed, I was on my way to pick up Maggie from her grooming appointment. Suddenly, my Tacoma’s doors unlocked and locked again, the horn began blowing and the emergency lights flashed on and off. In a panic, I pulled off the road, turned the engine off, waited, turned it back on. Nothing I did made it stop. I sat there for about three or four minutes with horn blaring and lights flashing. I realized it had to be David.

David was finding creative ways to get my attention. I was getting up every morning around 4 am to meditate and pray. I was also staying in a state of near meditation most of the days. One day, I asked ATI about free will, something we often discussed with them when David was physically here. Doing God’s will was important to us, but it was sometimes confusing about what that was. We wanted the truth. They told us many things that may or may not have been truth as we saw it at the time. Truth is relative. Us physical humans don’t have the capacity to know the full truth about anything. God reveals things to us as it serves our highest and best good. Sometimes we just get breadcrumbs. Sometimes it’s something much more. We just have to go along with it and be patient. God’s guidance is sometimes a mystery that reveals itself in due time.

This is an exert from my journal about free will on January 28, 2021. When David and I started on this journey, they had different plans for us but they kept telling us it depended on free will. If those involved did God’s will, it seemed, they would be blessed. If they chose their own will, they would have to handle the consequences of their decision, which may or may not work out for them. I guess doing our own will causes more struggle or suffering. Is that true, ATI? Yes, this is correct. You may get there but it will be all up hill. Let go, and the things you desire will come to you. How do we ask? You ask in appreciation. So if I ask for the money to finish David’s music project, it will come? Yes, if you state it so and let go. You must get over this lack mindset. See, we saved you much money last year so you would get through this hump. But don’t you know much more is coming to you? Relax about this. We want this for you. It is through you that much will be done. It is for us as much as you. You will see when we get there.

I didn’t know what was going to happen next, nor was I concerned. I retreated from the world and opened my awareness. I didn’t want to miss anything, a sign, a word, a feeling. I was torn between my work and David’s project. I wanted to write but I had to make a living. ATI was right. 2020 was my best year in over a decade, financially. I was really struggling over what to do. I wasn’t serving humanity with my mortgage business. I was only feeding into my fear of lack of income by clinging to it. I had been here before. It’s the moment when you’re standing on the edge of the cliff afraid to jump. I was asking for guidance from ATI, from David. Just then I heard the song “Miracle” by Shinedown. I listened to Shinedown all the time, and this song from 2012 had never been on my feed before. I knew what I needed to do. It was time to jump. I quit my job to focus on writing and whatever ATI had in store for me.

David was busy finding ways to get my attention. I color my own hair and I’m very careful not to get the hair dye anywhere. The day after a hair coloring session, I found a glob of hair color on the wall five feet away from where I had been. A few weeks later, the Director of the church’s Children’s ministry asked if I’d return to teach on Wednesday nights. My first night back, this plastic thing was hanging on the door frame of the room I was teaching in. It was almost the same shape as the color glob.

I had another incident with a tabletop easel in my bedroom. It was standing upright, secured by wingnuts on both sides. On a couple occasions, I found the easel laying flat on the table. Considering the possibility that maybe one of my visitors had done this, which was highly unlikely, I paid closer attention to the easel. I had only occasional visitors, and they weren’t going into my bedroom. About a week after deciding to keep an eye on the easel, I found it laying flat again. The wingnuts had been loosened to drop it back, and then re-tightened again after the easel was laid flat. This showed me that it didn’t just fall backwards by itself.

About two months after David passed we were clearing out his room to do some repairs. As I went to take down a picture of Mary and Jesus off the wall, I noticed the golden light streaking down behind them. I gasped, and my heart jumped. This was just like the light cloud David sent me when he was in the coma.

The best gift of all was the morning I saw David. I came out of the barn and as I looked toward the gate, there was David, standing on the other side waiting for me. He was facing toward me wearing jeans and his denim jacket, in full form. It was only a split second and then he was gone.

I was also visited by a very large rat in the barn. I had been in and out of that barn for eighteen years and had never seen a rat. The rat just walked along the frame of the stalls, watching me while I was feeding the animals. He wasn’t afraid of me, nor was I afraid of him. We just shared our presence together over a couple of days and then I never saw him again.

If you’ve lost someone close, don’t discount your sense that they are trying to reach out to you. They can, and do! Even if they are in a coma, their consciousness can be outside of the body. They are in a higher vibrational state, in a frequency where time is different. It’s not so linear, like it is here, in the material. They can see what we are going to do, or where we are going to be. They can put things in our path that line up for us in a miraculous way, from our perspective. A song plays on the radio or on a stream at a specific moment. A bird or butterfly shows up, or you see a word on a billboard. Number sequences on a clock such as 11:11, 4:44, etc. You might just get an awareness of them. From our vantage point, we think it’s impossible, yet for some of them it’s child’s play. They are energy and consciousness, as we are, but without the physical limitations that we have. We get caught up in the illusion of the material, and our minds can’t comprehend the true nature of reality. It is so much more than we experience with only our five senses. We have a sixth sense, our intuition, if we’d just open up to it. David has been showing me what’s possible since he transitioned.

I’ve had many psychic medium readings over several decades. Since David passed, I’ve had quite a few, with different mediums. I was connecting with him on my own, and wanted validation that what I was hearing and seeing was accurate. I also wanted to be sure I was doing the right thing. Chuck Bergman has been a friend and trusted consultant for me for many years. He has validated much of what David has done, and things he didn’t do that I gave him credit for. David’s witty sense of humor and gentle nature always shines through, as did his strong energy. In one reading I asked if David had lifted the patio umbrella up and out of the concrete table. He said it wasn’t him, his wings weren’t that big! Chuck and I both laughed. He confirmed that he set off the truck alarm, and was pretty proud of himself for figuring that out. I was impressed too! David had just transitioned a few weeks earlier when he did that. The clouds, yes, that was David. David’s music often came up in the readings as well. The music project didn’t die with David. I didn’t know how, but I really believed that it was possible to finish the project. I knew that whatever was supposed to happen would happen, and I was okay with that. All I could do was the next thing in front of me. And that’s what I did.