G48: The Divine Interrupt…Post 3

David put his hand down as They began to speak. Now, Judy!  We did that so your husband knows he’s in control. He’s always in control. He would never hurt you!  He doubts who we are. I didn’t doubt! Only I would know Bud like that. That was one of the most overwhelming moments I’d ever had, more than the video coming on during the night. Any crazy physical manifestation from the other side is helpful for me to understand we aren’t alone. I like the proof. That one was scary. After a traumatic moment, they always soothed us. They would do this soothing many more times. The biggest healing was to come.

David and I both had many character defects. After the first couple of years with Holy Spirit, we became different people. They told David what to do, what not to do, when, how, but usually never why until after the fact; sometimes.  They made him do things that to him were embarrassing, or made no sense, but he did them anyway. Things always worked out perfectly. It was always his choice to do what they instructed. He could refuse, but he said it wasn’t worth the discomfort. It’s the same thing with regular day-to-day life for most people. If you go against your higher conscience, and don’t do what you know is the right thing to do, you feel uncomfortable. With David and Holy Spirit, it was just with a much higher volume. This is how everyone’s Higher Being gets them to move; through what feels good in the heart, and what feels off. It’s a subtle feeling in the body, a feeling of peace, of love, and not being insistent on any outcome. You just do the next right thing. Others call this following your bliss.

Holy Spirit would often tell him we were going to do something that he knew would upset me, and he didn’t like delivering the bad news. For one example, we were just getting back on our financial feet and Holy Spirit told us to start buying hamburger to feed our two dogs.  Not the cheap hamburger! It had to be prime cut burger! I didn’t take it well.  But David wasn’t going to go against them, and I always relented. There were other frivolous things they had us spend money on that eventually helped put us back on the financial edge. My income was on the rocks again after They told me to take a job with a particular company. They said it was a “good company”. What I believe they meant but didn’t share with me was, it was a good company for me to experience more trauma. It turned out to be a nightmare, not only losing significant commission income, but the number and level of toxicity was off the chart!  Did I learn a lot? Yep!  On many levels. Mostly, I had to detach my feelings of self-worth with how much money I made. I had to learn that some things are out of our control. Resisting is futile. Letting go is usually the best option.

We had wonderful moments with Them, and many questions. They gave us some astonishing answers about Heaven, the history of Earth, where Man came from and when, where we go when die, how the Pyramids were built, what happened to Lemuria and Atlantis, etc. They said Heaven is all around us, like a big vast space encircling the outer perimeter with the galaxies in the center. Earth is 6 1/2 billion years old and has another 1 1/2 billion to go. There was originally one land mass around the middle of the earth with ocean to the south and north. Eventually, Lemuria blew themselves up trying to create more power. Atlantis followed suit afterwards. I wanted to know about ETs but they never really talked about it. What they did share was fascinating stuff! One morning, I met David in the garage while he was talking with Holy Spirit, as he was mostly always doing. At the end of a chat with them, they told us that God smells like baby powder.  Fun fact, I thought, but I wasn’t buying it. A while later I was in the front yard with the dogs and was hit with a strong scent of baby powder!  It lingered as I walked around the house and then disappeared. I was impressed! This was one of my favorite magical moments with Holy Spirit!

As I mentioned previously, David was alcoholic in his early years. His life changed when he decided to quit cold-turkey, which can be a life-threatening undertaking. He had a wife and two small boys to take care of and had just started his new job.  As fate would have it, or as Divine Intervention planned it, he was dropped right in the middle of several people in recovery. They got him to AA meetings, and then into a 30-day rehab where David thought he’d get some medication to help with the agonizing physical withdrawal. He quickly found out that praying to God, and working the Twelve-Step program, was his only relief. He wasn’t happy about the physical sickness, the group therapy sessions, or the Twelve-Step program. He soon relented. Fine! I’ll work your damned Twelve-Step Program and I’ll show you it doesn’t work; it’s B.S.! 

As he walked the property at the rehab center, he was full of anxiety. What have I done? I’m going to lose my job, my family, what am I going to do now?  He said that was when he heard God speak to him.  David, are you okay right now? 

Yeah, but…

No “buts”, are you okay right now?

Yes, I’m okay right now.

In that moment, things began to change inside of him. He knew that no matter what, everything was going to be okay. He gave the Twelve Step all he had, and he changed. David shared this story with the New Life jail classes that we conducted later through church. The Twelve-Step program works for anyone who is willing to take the time. I found this out first-hand when David told me Holy Spirit said I had to work the program too. I didn’t argue. I knew I had some fixing to do.  Step 4 is the hardest step; Made a list of our character defects. It was my dark night of the soul; a painful and intensive two-days as I began to remember parts of my past that I had buried. We develop most of our beliefs in the first six or seven years of our lives from the people around us. The things they say to us, how they treat us, all has a huge impact on who we become. We’re usually in a bit of a dream-like state during those early years, so it’s easy to forget the little moments that have the biggest affect on our psyche. For Step 5, David and I shared our past, and all our hidden secrets, with each other. Some of it was uncomfortable to speak, and some of his was hard for me to hear.  Afterwards, I felt emotionally exhausted, yet a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I had no more secrets. The façade was gone, the anger was gone, the fear was gone. David and I had both been stripped down in front of each other, and in front of God.

David used to say at times that they were lying. I believe they were telling us the part of truth that was helpful to us, to fix our psychology. They were honest and straight to the point when it mattered, and other times only sharing what would serve our highest and best good. I believe we know truth when we hear it. Our cells resonate with it. We have to learn to use our own inner guidance, to pay attention to how the cells of our body react to what we hear and experience. There are many things I don’t understand, many things I can’t prove or validate. But there are many things I feel in my gut and heart that are truth. If it serves me, I’ll keep it. If it doesn’t, I toss it. It might not fit in with other people’s perception, but it doesn’t matter, this is my life experience. I don’t know if it’s David, or Holy Spirit, who said, God’s in charge no matter what I believe. As hard as I might try to control things, I don’t know what’s going to happen next.  It was always an adventure with Them. Whatever happens, it’s going to be okay.