What’s The Purpose Behind the Blog?

More About The “Why”…

Seeing the disconnection in my surroundings at a young age, I spent a lot of my life being angry and resentful, and mostly fearful that I didn’t measure up. I still struggle with that at times, and maybe you do too. As I got older, I started to realize my own shortcomings. It took me many more years, and my relationship with my husband, David, to be able to understand them on a deeper level, and to begin to let them go.

David saved me twice; first when we met and again when he passed. He and I were each on a search for God in our own lives, dealing with hurts, tragedy, and recovery from the past to come to the full conclusion that we were never in charge of our primary outcome. We were, however, able to choose how we felt and experienced our lives in each moment. Two years after we married, things got weird, and profound. Our life together became deeply rooted in our interaction with God, or higher intelligence, while we maintain normalcy with friends and family. David did service work and counseled others in his twelve-step program with amazing insight and wisdom. He taught classes at church. We participated in bible study and edification groups, and our A.R.E. study group regularly. We enjoyed most of our free time together discussing God, the Universe, heaven, the nature of reality, and the probability that we humans were far more connected to God in our ancient past. We were fascinated with the mounting evidence of the continuation of consciousness as shared through NDE stories, and our own experience with Higher Intelligence. We wanted to understand God’s will for us more than anything else.

David taught me how to love unconditionally, and we had a wonderful life until he passed from a brain hemorrhage in 2020. I relied on him for my own stability, and with that gone I wanted to go too. Then, in that moment of grace, our Weimaraner, Christian, walked into the room. I realized I had things to do here, if only for now to take care of the animals. Later, perhaps I could find a way to get our story out, and maybe even launch David’s music project. Through it all, I had to strengthen my own connection with God and with David in his new state of being.

I’m not clear what God’s will is for me beyond following my heart and inner guidance in the moment. Amazing and unexplainable things happened during the eight years before David passed, and in the time since. I’ve been working on the story now for two years, but it keeps getting stalled. Perhaps it’s my fear that no one will be interested, or maybe the story isn’t complete yet. In the time since David passed, he has shown me that consciousness does not end when the body quits. It’s not just our story, it’s everybody’s story. We’re all going home one day, no matter our beliefs. And we’ve all suffered the loss of loved ones. You just gotta open up and be willing to suspend your disbelief in things that don’t make rational sense. Even science is on its own spiritual search and is showing us more and more that the world we think we know may not be real. So, what is real? These are the things I want to explore further in Us in the Universe.

I hope you’ll stay with me as we look closer into seeing things in a different light. A slightly different perspective can change everything in our life experiences. Since life is also about functioning in our current systems, I’ll share a few “off-topic” things like managing finances, which includes home financing, raising kids, healing through the Twelve-Step program, and a link to my soap company, MarigoldSoapAndBath.com.  Drop me a note if there’s something you would like to hear more about, or if you have suggestions for the blog. I’ve also just started a YouTube channel, OpenEyes, where I posted a song David had written back in 2014 called Janon. I hope you’ll have a moment to watch Janon and tell me what you think. Thanks for visiting and sharing your input.